how is it that you always make me feel like shit. how is it that you can talk to me that way and have complete disregard for how i take it. how is it that it is so easy for you to get annoyed at me over the stupidest things and be nice to EVERYONE else. just because i don’t say anything doesn’t mean it doesn’t bother me. you break my heart every time and it seems like you don’t even realize nor care that you do. i have been trying, but you’ve been making it difficult. 

sorry for being such a (new year’s) party pooper, but i just needed to rant. pardon my language, too. will try to sleep this off.